There are a lot of recurring thoughts in my mind that i want to tell you about but honestly i can't bring myself to anymore.

I've always wanted someone to come save me from all my troubles, to make me happy when i was down, to motivate me and to love me for who i was. I thought i did but i've come to realize that this is not the case. Sure he loves me, he cares about me and still tries to make me happy but he can't save me from everything. I can't be the dependent and needy person that i am anymore. i have to learn to save myself and to get back up when i fall. I need to do this in order to grow and become stronger. But in saying this i feel so fucken lonely, like im closing myself up sigh.

At one point i also gave into believing in 'forevers' but no i shouldn't have. Perhaps things will last for what seems like forever but i just feel like i should also be aware of the fact that things do change and do not always turn out the way you planned. BLEH.